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Bam Jenkins, Attourney at Law

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Ch-ch-ch-changes [27 May 2004|01:33pm]
[ mood | content ]

Moved journals. I will no longer be feeding my self rightious crap into this one, instead they can be found here. If youd like to add me as a friend, or whatnot, feel free.


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The Apocalypse is upon us. [06 May 2004|02:13am]
[ mood | ecstatic ]

I have a job! Finally!

Eh, it's Circle K, but it's better than nothing. I am sooo stoked.


A rant about anime. Namely Neon Genesis Evangelion. [02 May 2004|04:29pm]
[ mood | confused ]

I love anime. The artwork, the story, the characters, I love it all.

I hate Evangelion. Well, no, I love Eva, but I hate the ending.

I like to think that I'm good at figuring out obscure movies. Hell, the first time I watched all of Neon Genesis Evangelion, I thought I had it's ending figured out. Both of the endings. Lemme explain.

Contains slight spoilers...Collapse )

I've watched both endings multiple times in the past 24 hours alone and all I can say is my brain is about to explode. I want to weep, seriously. How could this happen?

Now, if you'll excuse me, I'm going to find the Lance of Longinus and congratulate some children...

(UPDATE: Thanks to http://www.evaotaku.com/index2.html , I don't feel as let down, but let down none the less.)


Drama [01 May 2004|12:13pm]
[ mood | annoyed ]

I'm not an avid fan of drama.

Rhonda hops on msn messenger today and asks me if I'll take the kids tomorrow. I tell her it might be a better idea if I took them next weekend, seeing as how we have the new babies at the house, and she goes into one of her fits.

It starts off pretty typical, her telling me she's getting a restraining order placed against me because I won't take the kids tomorrow (good luck with that one, genius), and it evolves into the "You never want your kids when I want to get rid of them, you're a bad father" routine.

After that, however, she pulls a surprise "Jaiden isn't yours, by the way" on me. Funny, I don't remember getting a paternity test to establish that, and she goes into how around the time she got pregnant with Jaiden, she had been with 4 people that month including me. I'm not quite sure if she was trying to make me worry about if I'm Jaiden's father, or make me laugh at the fact that she just admitted to being a whore. Either way, it didn't bother me because if Jaiden wasn't mine, why would she look exactly like me (aside from the whole being a 2 year old girl thing)?

After that, she busts out with "BRB, I'm going to start filling out the child support papers" and then she returns 3 minutes later. After the initial shock that someone could file for child support that fast, I asked her:

Joshua says:
If you can't talk to me without arguing with me, could you stop sending me messages?

I wasn't rude, I wasn't obscene, I wasn't spiteful, just wanted her to quit talking to me.

She responds by cutting and pasting the words "fuck you" over and over again. Just like this:

Rhondy says:
fuck youfuck youfuck youfuck youfuck youfuck youfuck youfuck youfuck youfuck youfuck youfuck youfuck youfuck youfuck youfuck youfuck youfuck youfuck youfuck youfuck youfuck youfuck youfuck youfuck youfuck youfuck youfuck youfuck youfuck youfuck youfuck youfuck youfuck youfuck youfuck youfuck youfuck youfuck youfuck youfuck youfuck youfuck youfuck youfuck youfuck youfuck youfuck youfuck youfuck youfuck youfuck you

After that, I blocked her. I shouldn't have to deal with this shit every weekend just to see my children. This is retarded, and exactly the kind of behavior I would expect from a 13 year old, not a 23 year old mother of 3.

I dunno, maybe this is the price I pay for having children with a retard. Either way, I don't think it's fair that I get treated this way. Yeah, I understand that by imbedding my seed in her, I probably ruined any chance she had at having a fun party life, which is something she's told me she resents me for, but it's my belief that once you have kids, those kids become your priority and you work to provide them with a happy, nurturing life.

My children want to see me. They tell me every time I talk to them. I sincerely hope this is something Rhonda will grow out of over time.


Omodeto! [29 Apr 2004|05:55am]
[ mood | excited ]

Congratulations to my baby brother Chuck who's twins were born yesterday :)

Welcome Elijah Jacob and Jesse Ray :)

I am so fucking stoked, NEW NEPHEWS!

I am so proud I could explode!


Long Time No Update [21 Apr 2004|02:53pm]
[ mood | content ]

It's been awhile.

Life's been pretty kind. Still no job, but other than that, I don't really have any complaints.

Me and Heather are doing great. I'm at her place more than mine, and it rocks. We plan on moving in together as soon as we're both working and have some money saved up.

I'm going to the In Flames/Killswitch Engage/As I Lay Dying concert at the Cajun House on May 16th. I'm completely stoked. Since my brother introduced me to In Flames' music last week, I've been listening to them non-stop. This is some good shit.

We're also going to the Projekt Revolution concert in September. Bands playing there are Linkin Park, Korn, Snoop Dogg, The Used, and Less Than Jake. Heather's a big fan of Linkin Park, whereas I'm not (they're ok), but I can finally fulfill my dream of seeing Snoop Dogg in concert. I'm not a big rap fan, but I love muthafuckin' Snoop D-O-Double-G! I'm wicked stoked for that one.

Other than that, life is life, it keeps on going, droning like the hum of my shitty processor fan.


Heaven and hell [10 Apr 2004|05:50pm]
[ mood | chipper ]

Let's see, the past week has been pretty intense, and I don't wanna go into too much detail...

Me and Heather let everyone know we're a couple... and not-so-unexpectedly, people have been giving us shit for it. Not that we're together, as much as that we're no longer single.

People who have either wanted her or wanted me have been giving her shit for it, whereas none of them have the balls to say a word to me.

In addition, Rhonda found out, and decided that she may not want me seeing my kids anymore strictly because I'm happy with someone who isn't her.

I feel like a fucking babysitter.

I don't care what anyone thinks. For the first time, in a long time, I am completely happy, and I'll be damned if I'm going to let anyone ruin it for me.

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Yay. [06 Apr 2004|02:16am]
I'm in a relationship!


She's beautiful, she's smart, she's witty, and girl knows how to move :P

The downside? It's a secret relationship. Meaning, we don't want people within our social circle to know about it just yet... how do I feel about this? I'm not sure, I'll get back to ya on that.


I'm still alive. [02 Apr 2004|06:01pm]
[ mood | blank ]

Waiting for Shannon to pick me up around 7.. were gonna go to Kits to hang out and drink. Fun stuff.

Last night I got to see Heather, was kinda cool, we made out some, but she's way too aggressive for me. Maybe it's something I'll get used to...


Ouch. [31 Mar 2004|02:32pm]
[ mood | nauseated ]

Hung over still from last night's excursion to Anderson's 5th.

Saw Craig, who I haven't seen in 3-4 years. I was glad to see he's doing good, and no longer only dating 17 year old girls :P

This was my first time out with my little brother since he became 21 on Monday. Was kinda weird, being with him in a bar, but it worked out well.

I think this red hair makes me really ugly or something, because everyone we were with (7 guys) got talked to by ladies, except me. I even broke down and danced; something I don't like doing at all.


Hrm. [29 Mar 2004|03:59am]
[ mood | blah ]

Yesterday (sunday) was quite odd.

I got my kids in the morning, 11ish. Shannon came and picked us up and we went to her house so my kids could play with her kids. That was fine and dandy, except my kids were awfully whiney while we were there, and even worse on the trip back.

Their mother came to pick them up around 6, at which time we got into an argument because I told her that the kids don't like her new boyfriend, Robby. She tried to say it was my fault they didn't, when all I've ever said to them regarding Robby was "If you don't like him, don't talk to him".

About an hour later, I called Rhonda to confirm I could have the kids next sunday, and Robby answered. He starts the conversation with "I'm 6 foot and 250 pounds." Who the fuck starts a conversation like that? I ask him if I can talk to Rhonda, and he proceeds to tell me I'll never see her or my kids again.

I don't really want to see Rhonda, because I know she's nothing but bad for me, but I'll be damned if some pompous motherfucker I don't even know is going to tell me I can't see my kids. I ended up blowing up on him, which resulted in him saying "If you talk any more shit I'm calling the cops" and he hung up on me. Yeah Rhonda, real winner you picked there.

After that, I did some cleaning around the house, and about 4 hours ago, I bleached my hair and dyed it red. It ended up brighter than I intended, but I still like it. Kinda a Ben Affleck in Daredevil thing going on.

I am still lonely, but I'm beginning to think I like it that way. I doubt anyone will find me soon, and I doubt I will find them.

Maybe it's the way it's meant to be. *shrugs*

In other news, my baby brother turns 21 today and I finally got a vote on facethejury (7).


I'm so alone. [27 Mar 2004|10:32pm]
[ mood | depressed ]

I'm actually missing Rhonda, despite my better instincts.

I hate this.


Nice Night Leads Into Horrible Morning... News at 11! [21 Mar 2004|10:49am]
[ mood | infuriated ]

Last night, around 11ish, I got asked by Jesse and Kit to go with them to King Tut's for some hookah and debachery. Of course I went, I love that shit. Was a good time. Smoked, ate, smoked some more, good stuff.

Got home around 3:30 this morning, and slept like a baby...

until about 20 mins ago, when Rhonda called me to complain as usual about everything and anything. Got called an asshole twice.

Fun stuff indeed.

I told her that if we need to keep talking to each other to arrange visits with the kids, she needs to either talk to me like Im a human being, or not call me at all. I'm getting really sick of this "I can't have you, but I'll do whatever it takes to manipulate you" attitude of hers.


Whaa! [19 Mar 2004|04:18pm]
[ mood | angry ]

I'm a crybabyCollapse )

By the way, Roz, if you read this, Pirates are so not cooler than ninjas, and thinking such constitutes a flogging.

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Had a nice night [19 Mar 2004|03:48pm]
[ mood | accomplished ]

Last night was alot of fun. I went to this place called King Tut's on Apache and Terrace. Never been in a joint like that before. Totally dug it.

Afterwards, went back to Kit's and Jesse's house for drinks and debachery. Fun times indeed.

Now to see what I'm doing tonight..


Gyah! [18 Mar 2004|03:04pm]
[ mood | bored ]

Today was lame. Woke up, looked for work. Fun fun.

I'm sitting in my living room, no TV on, stereo blasting Rammstein, and I find myself missing my old life before I got booted out of the apartment.

Yeah, that's right, I miss being miserable.

Boredom always does this shit to me. Lack of funds prohibits me from going out and doing something fun.

Maybe I'll get on messenger and harrass random people. Fun stuff.

Why am I submitting this to my livejournal?


Wow, I'm really stupid. [17 Mar 2004|06:01pm]
[ mood | chipper ]

Today is Saint Patrick's Day.

Niiiiiiiiiice. I was gonna see if I could go out tonight and not drink, but now I kinda have to. I'm not Irish, but I'm trendy as a motherfucker.

I'm going to be hanging out with Shannon and her brother John for sure, tho I'm not 100% on what we'll go out and do (aside from drink). I'll probably end up at GCS showing the country folk how a retard with no inhibitions can shake his cracker ass. That always results in an interesting night. Besides, with bartenders looking like those, I can ignore the fact that I'm in a predominantly country music-oriented establishment and some of the people inside have probably fondled a relative once or twice.

Don't get me wrong; I don't dislike hicks, I just... okay, nevermind, I do dislike them. No more than I dislike anyone else tho. At least they're not Amish.

Shannon should be here in about 40 mins, and my hair isn't in Sexy Mode yet, soooo...

This is Joshua-Kun, signing off.


Fun Times [17 Mar 2004|01:32pm]
[ mood | aggravated ]

Last night, I didn't get a chance to update this due to massive tiredness, so I'll do it today.

Last night, I called up Rob/obtrectation and he stopped by to hang out. It was really cool, because I haven't seen him in 4 years.

We bullshitted some, then went to Mill to go visit Chris, another old friend of ours, at his work. We got there and parked on Mill kinda by the Hooters, and figured we'd walk over to his work from there. Ended up walking for like 30 mins, then turned around back to the car because we decided it was too far to walk.

By the time we got to the car, we figured it was too late so he took me home. BSed some more, talked about chicks and tats and other miscellaneous topics.

Was really nostalgic, reminded me that I was young and full of life once.

Today has been crap. Woke up to a phone call from my ex with whom I argued with for bout an hour. Other than that, cleaned the house some, did some laundry, cooked... fun stuff. It's hard to break this housewife routine.


Hmmm, appears I'm a typical Saggitarius. [16 Mar 2004|09:28am]
[ mood | awake ]


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I hate those eye goobers you get when you sleep.. [16 Mar 2004|09:07am]
[ mood | groggy ]

Just woke up... thought I'd have more to say here, but I don't. I'm going to take a shower and go look for work, whee..

Wish me luck.

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