I hate being alone.
I used to think that somewhere out there, is someone just like me, someone I will meet and hook up with and be happy with. Now, part of me still believes it, but the rest of me thinks it's horseshit.
Am I destined to be alone? What the fuck is holding me back?
I like to think that I have a good personality. I'm decent looking, I'm friendly, I'm definately funny. Why aren't people attracted to me?
I'm getting shot down so often I'm starting to believe maybe I have to be alone. Maybe God or some other random cosmic force is taking a steamy dump right on my face.
My standards can't be too high... I HAVE NO STANDARDS. The only thing I can think of is maybe I'm doing something wrong. Did everyone all of a sudden decide that nice guys weren't hip anymore and I wasn't told about it? Do I have to be an asshole? I don't want to be, but if that's what it takes...
It's not even so much that I mind being alone. Okay, I do mind it, but not as much as I make it sound. I just LOVE having someone there. Not necessarily to be co-dependant, just someone I can talk to whenever I want about whatever I want would be nice.
In an act of desperation, I'm thinking about trying personal ads. I'm so fucking stupid.
P.S. If anyone reads this, and is completely desperate for whatever they can get, drop me a line :P
By the way, Roz, if you read this, Pirates are so not cooler than ninjas, and thinking such constitutes a flogging.